ugh long day.

Been up since 530 and on the go ever since. Mom’s appointment was okay; she had a biopsy done, we’ll have the results in a week or two. Praying so much that everything is okay. It’s been almost ten years since she was first diagnosed and it’s still the most nerve-wracking thing. I wish it would stop coming back! It’s always emotional going into that office and I feel really drained.

My great uncle died and his funeral is tomorrow. Thankful that he isn’t suffering anymore, but it’s very sad. My great aunt is lost without him.

On a lighter note: I went to the grocery store this evening and there were a few veterans sitting outside the door. I emptied all the change in my wallet, and they thanked me so genuinely. They said it was so nice that a young girl like me cared enough to donate. I was a little disgusted that they aren’t used to receiving donations from people my age? I don’t understand that. But I stayed to chat for a while and thanked them for their service. Good way to end such an exhausting day!

#personal  #mom  
  May 23, 2013 at 06:38pm

epicurose replied to your post: today/tomorrow:

praying for your mama. you two are strong, beautiful women

Thank you, love! <3 

  May 22, 2013 at 10:32pm

today/tomorrow:

Not nearly as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I got out of the house, which was super important! My cousin had to take the baby to the doctor’s today, so I ended up not seeing them, but hanging out with my sister and my two best friends instead. Had lunch and did girly things and talked, it felt good to socialize.

I’m determined to forget about all of this body negativity. If I let every little comment affect me, I’ll drive myself crazy. I should have just called my dad out on saying a dumb thing instead of assuming the worst and internalizing it.

It was exciting to get back to the gym tonight. I feel so much better. I like having my head screwed on straight!

Bringing my mom to her cancer doctor tomorrow for her six month checkup. Praying that it goes well. !

#personal  #gym  #mom  
  May 22, 2013 at 09:41pm

betruebelieveinyou asked: Hi loveluy I hope you have an amazing day. Remember you ARE beautiful. . . I am going to start to send you messages every day because you deserve to know how beautiful you are (:

Can we talk about this lovely lady for a second?

You’re SO sweet, I can’t handle it. !! <3 

  May 22, 2013 at 09:15am

hehe, okay! I love you <3

  May 22, 2013 at 08:47am

meep:

The Bruins won last night. !! It was pretty cool to see all of these people at the bar care about hockey as much as I do (even if it’s only because it’s the playoffs and everyone gets on the bandwagon). 

Having a really tough time this morning. I’ve been up for a few hours now and I’m making myself so anxious thinking about food I’ll have to eat and how I skipped the gym yesterday. I feel so guilty, I’m nauseous. Not healthy. So I’m not really sure what to do about that? idk. The day hasn’t even really started yet!

#personal  
  May 22, 2013 at 08:45am

and then there’s this. 

hahaha

love youuu!

  May 21, 2013 at 05:52pm

lol enjoy, just rambling about my day!

  May 21, 2013 at 05:44pm

Anonymous asked: Can you do a video post?

uuuh sure! I never know what to say in these things. ! hahah but for you, anon, I will!

  May 21, 2013 at 05:28pm

gonewithguilt replied to your post: okay, deep breath.

but you did it. I know how it feels. “Cold and broken hallelujah” like the song says. Thats how I always describe it. But you did it and youre amazing!

Yes ma’am! Thank you. :)

  May 21, 2013 at 04:40pm